Confession of a Engineering Postgrad

I've grown up to be quite arrogant. People might not agree but it's true. It's not like I rub it in people's faces: that would be immature. But I expect to be good at everything.

Problem is as you climb up the life's ladder, competition gets tougher and tougher. Once upon a time I was top in the school, then in engineering I was above average, and right now in postgrad, I'm almost at the bottom rig.

I suppose my problem is the fact that I get used to measuing my success by comparing myself to others. And it's how I've been since I was born. I win something in almost every competition I entered (except the sport ones). Anothing from art to drama, to maths and chemistry. So when I don't get the same sort of recognition for this current project: I panicked.

Not to mention all around me are now people much better than I am. I really doesn't help.

The research isn't going well either. Granted I seem to be the only one who thinsk that, but it doesn't change the fact that it's not going anywhere. And hey, others don't know how much I've actually done in the project now do they.

Today's lesson from the counsellor was not to compare myself with others, or at least see the whole picture. It sounds very good in my head, I just have to actually stop doing it. But when I've been raised to do so, it's extremely hard.

Curse the Hong Kong education system.